If staying feels a lot like sacrificing wouldn't letting go means you saved yourself?

Letting go. 

 

To let go — requires you to accumulate an overwhelming amount of strength. It is not easy nor painless but most of the times we are thrown in the situation where we have to let go to save what's left of ourselves. The rule of hello would be followed by goodbyes. Feelings fade and here is the bitter truth — you will never able to forget the person you love, you simply will find another human to love more.

No amount of love and sacrifices could alter fate. If the love is wrong — you have to let go. Some people chose to stay for they mistook toxic vibes with proving their loyalty. Baby, if staying feels a lot like sacrificing — wouldn't letting go means you saved yourself?

I remember when I just learned how to read subtitles and mama sheds tears from watching Titanic . out of pure curiosity I asked her “why do we have to let go of someone that we love?” She gave me a small smile and said; “This world is ugly my dear, and most of the time something as pure as love does not stand a chance against it.” 

I hate to grow up and learn my lesson in love — only to be given the same exact advise 15 years later. I gave it some thought and mama was right. Love alone will never be enough of a reason to be loyal to the wrong soul. You are bound to meet your soulmate somewhere out there and delaying leaving would only make you miss a lot of opportunities to fine the one.

Do you know how can i tell when you are sad?

"Do you know how can i tell when you are sad?"

It is devastating how you really thought you got the sadness swept under the rug 

but from the eye of the person who loves you — it shows.

You joke more than usual so the people around you will laugh loud enough to cover your silence and you smile constantly especially when someone look you straight in the eyes as if the director in your head keep on reminding you of your queue to do so. The giggle and glow in your chuckle would be camouflage with one tone laugh.

My dear your laugh sounds like home and it warms out the stress out of people around you and I had always been amazed on how contiguous your chuckle is. It is the kind of laugh that make your eyes squeezed shut and you will eventually be out of breath. 

but when you are sad, your laugh would washed out faster than it usually last.

The truth lays in your eyes when it stays open and not a trace of humor were in it. If one cares to listen carefully — your laugh sounds a lot like a cry for help when you're sad.

On the days that you are sad — you tend to ask people twice for each "i'm fine" they replied and that stare you gave them when you silently remind them you would be there if they need someone. This habit of yours came from that deep sadness you brushed off and most people believe you are strong enough not to lie about being okay.

You would make sure to feed the people around that seem like having a bad day with little sweet stuff like candies since you know eating something heavy would makes you throw up right after you shove foods down your throat. Being a girl it would be believable for people to accept when you gave diet as an excuse not to eat.

 

The dark circles under your eyes and the hollowness inside it are solid proof that your body couldn't disguise your sadness even with layers of concealer.

Baby did you wait until the sun comes up to keep the nightmares away again?

If one listens careful enough — they will hear the occasional deep sigh you took that sound as sorrow as your cry.

You're a social butterfly who make everyone around you think they are so close to you and there you are — floating soul looking from the outside — separated with a thin invisible wall that plays as your defense.

That my dear, is how I can tell when you are sad. Surprise — are you not? To know someone cares enough to be able to observe your defense mechanism that you put on each time you're sad.